I have not written about my depression as much in the last couple of weeks. I have felt more balanced. Easter was a horror show for me this year – I was so much in the darkness I could hardly get out of bed. But since then I have found some balance, some purpose, and some direction. The pressure I place on myself has lessened and I am more kind with myself. I am so thankful for the people who have stood by me when I was so sick.
So today is Saturday – the day of preparation. I am working on the Bible Study for Tuesday night and on tomorrow’s service slides and video. It is pretty much what I do most Saturdays now. I am very happy doing it, drinking tea, and listening to 80s music. I find that often the Bible Study is more about me than the people who come along. I try to listen to God, to listen with the heart, and hear what He is saying to me. I do not think I am particularly insightful, nor smart, and I often think I am simply stating the obvious. But I know I have changed by doing the online studies!
I wish I had something insightful to say but that is about it. I hope I can go for a walk this afternoon but it is very cold and wet. And, to be honest, I am a little sick of walking. But I know it is good for me and it improves my mood and my overall health. I am not going to gym!!! So walking is about the only other thing I can do without involving other people.
Hope you have a blessed day!