[I was planning this post all the way through church so sorry to anyone I ignored!]
Pursue love and strive for the spiritual gifts, and especially that you may prophesy. For those who speak in a tongue do not speak to other people but to God; for nobody understands them, since they are speaking mysteries in the Spirit. On the other hand, those who prophesy speak to other people for their upbuilding and encouragement and consolation. Those who speak in a tongue build up themselves, but those who prophesy build up the church. Now I would like all of you to speak in tongues, but even more to prophesy. One who prophesies is greater than one who speaks in tongues, unless someone interprets, so that the church may be built up.1 Corinthians 14:1-5
God gives gifts to the church through individuals for the upbuilding of the people of God. I wish I could sing! Nothing like a beautiful Mass with vestments, incense, and a good choir with a cantor. But I cannot sing. In fact, I am completely tone deaf.
I am good at being alone. This morning I thought, “what if ‘being alone’ is God’s gift to me and through me to the church?”. God calls individuals to white martyrdom and just maybe that is my calling. I am not a misanthropist, as much as I like to pretend. I do like people and I miss aspects of human relationships. But I know that the moment that I am most “me” is when I am alone with Jesus.
The question becomes, “how does this gift buildup the church?”. So some connection with the people of God is necessary. But it need not be in “traditional ways”. God has blessed me with the internet – video calls, Zoom meetings, blogs, social media.
What is the point? I am not sure but maybe a calling to solitary life is something that the church has not valued. And the people of God have missed the gifts that this calling brings with it.
Maybe you all have a blessed Sonday!!!!!